Day 3

Today I really took the time to relish in the fact that I'm trying to nourish myself and choose the better options that will be better for my body and not for my hips.  I really want that cake but what happens when you eat it?? You feel satisfied, sure.... but for how long?? 10 minutes? Then it sets in.  That feeling. That "ugh why did I do that??" feeling.  And it makes.me.so.mad. at myself.  I don't know why I do it.  So now, I'm REALLY going to work hard on one thing and that's this.... to really focus on foods that will make me feel better on the inside, and out.

 

My goal is to keep my eyes on the bigger picture!  I can see it and I'm happy about it.  I used to be happy when I watched what I ate. I felt good, I didn't feel worn down, I wasn't tired, I felt healthy, I was at PEACE with myself. 

 





 



I absolutely LOVE being at home with my little girl but I do miss the days that I was just too busy to eat or even think about food. I remember going to the gym early, going home, getting dressed and going to work.  Then to my other job.  I wouldn't really even think about eating and when I did, while I don't agree with all my choices now that I'm older and wiser, they weren't nearly as scary as they are now.

 

 

 

 

So last night I was REALLY happy to have one of the healthiest things I could get my hands on and that was a huge piece of salmon.  I topped it with a McCormick spice called "Molasses Bacon." I've NEVER had a better piece of salmon than when I top it with this.  Not at a restaurant, not at home. NO where. I highly recommend it! I also had a sweet potato with some cinnamon on top!!

 

 



This morning I had a nice run at a nearby beach, different from the one I went to for the past two days.  I liked it a LOT better and we had a great run!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Now I'm at home and I just ordered some GREAT roasted veggies, a piece of Cod and some bruchetta chicken for the husband and I to share. :) 



Day 2

 

Today started with a really nice sunny run again.  I took my baby girl and we hit the sand.  Today I was really proud of myself because I went even further then the time before and I feel like I got a much better workout! It wasn't has hot today so this little peanut didn't complain too much. Or did Mom! My cutie definitely was ready to go back home towards the end which made me sad because I would have loved to ran for another 10-15 more minutes. Oh well, I'll take what I can get!

I just got this new top from Marshalls and I really like it!! It was awesome to run in and I love that it's sleeveless so I can get some sun!

Her Jogging Stroller I purchased off Craigslist from another running momma and it was the best money I ever spent! It was definitely used but I don't mind, I've gotten my moneys worth out of it for sure.

 

 

After we got home I put on her shows and I decided to get to work on something I've been wanting to make for weeks! It isn't even complicated but I finally have all the things I wanted to make it so here it is.  It's a spinach turkey bacon frittata muffin!!  They are SO SO GOOD!! And I had to try hard not to eat them all.  I only had 2 and surprisingly satisfying.

 

 

She fell asleep shortly after for her nap and then when she woke up we ran some errands! I had to run to the store to pick up some meat and some veggies.

 

 

 

Nope. She's not tired at all! Dinner is in the oven. Salmon and a baked sweet potato!! Orange and healthy, just the way I love it!!

 



 

One hot minute!

Okay so I'm back and I feel like i am bound and determined to get this under control. No going back!! I have been so good these past two days and my Will power is way way better than it has ever been before. Sometimes I get the feeling that I'm just so overweight that I won't ever get to be skinny again but then I remember ---- I gotta start somewhere!!! 

I went on a run today at the beach! 

It was beautiful and so peaceful. My little one actually rested and wasn't crazy during my run! The whole beach was exclusive and to myself! 

It was harder than running on concrete and having the stroller in addition was especially rough. But I did it and I burned some good calories! 

I'm so glad I made this decision and for real this time. I'm documenting it. Holding myself reaponsible. I'm done being fat. 

Working out at home

I never thought the day would come...but it did.  The days were getting shorter, Kevin has been gone all day several days a week, I'm on full time mommy status, and I've basically gotten bored...

it was the day I cancelled my gym membership. 

Gasp. I know. What? Who is this person? The girl who loved to hop on the treadmill for an hour while watching cake boss reruns or Fox News with the lovely Elizabeth Hasslebeck. I am no longer her! 

Now are the days of stepping on my 80s cardio stepper and pulling some major cardio moves that makes me WORK and oh how it makes me sweat! 

Now I Zumba with the oh so amazing Fitnessista and do some of her Shape Up workouts that leave me crying with an awesome burn. 

I also picked up a 15 pound kettlebell and workout with that as well. I feel that everywhere!  

I was so scared and worried that I wouldn't feel that cardio and the bliss I felt after running for 45 minutes but I do! And I'm pretty sure I feel it even more now! I love it too because I don't even have to leave my house and pick up all those cool gym cooties.  

So that's what I'm doing these days. It's pretty nuts how fast things turn around and how I'm proven wrong, but totally okay with it :)  Abby sleeps, I watch her snooze on her monitored while burning my calories and never have to leave my house. I get to do barre, Zumba, kettlebell, and HIIT with some pretty awesome trainers, all while never leaving my living room! I call that a success. :) 

So, goodbye gym, i might be back, I might not. We will see! 

This week

It's been a crazy past few weeks. I've had some crazy things going on here with Kevin's schedule and me trying to work around it, literally.  This new semester is starting and I don't see much changing other than for things to get more nuts around here! 

I've been getting back to working out after taking about a 3 week hiatus and I started back up last week so that's good.  I've been trying to juice every day and I think it's helped my hormones and anxiety level out a lot because that has been a real roller coaster ride for everyone! 

I've been waking up at 5:45am to get to the gym this week, it wasn't as hard as I thought but I just couldn't do it today. Abby had me up late last night and it was hard to think about walking and running when I just wanted to rest more. 

 

This weeks workouts so far!! 

Tomorrow morning I will def go to the gym. I'm trying desperately to talk Kevin into getting me a treadmill for the house so I can workout while I'm home too. It seems like it would be easy but picking one out is extremely difficult! 

I have to work tonight and I am taking this week kind of easy. Kevin has a full schedule this semester so I want to see him as much as possible. 

Workout done! And my own half marathon

So far today I've had a piece of my crustless quiche and I worked out and burned a few calories! 

 

It had to be a quick workout because Abby was sleeping and Kevin was working on fixing the internet cables in the house so I only got in 42 minutes but I'll take it! Abby has completely worn me out this week it's been absolutely nuts and I'd take the newborn stage over this any day!!! I don't even know what to do with her. I was going to try to run and train for the Jacksonville Donna half marathon but with her like this I'm not going to pay and stress about training if I'm going on literally 3 hours of sleep plus balancing work! Not going to happen right now. I'll just run my own half marathon one day lol 

I'm going to do some laundry and clean the house! 

Watching sugar

In the past I've never really watched my sugar intake. It was mostly the overall calorie amount I was interested in. Now, not so much. Don't get me wrong, I am not going crazy on calories from bacon and jerky.... Because calories are still calories but I'm just watching the sweets and replacing them with other things that I enjoy. One of which are the Russel Stover sugar free chocolates! I got a bag of the chocolate coconut macaroons and  another of a mix of different ones. I tried the chocolate caramel and it was delicious and rich!! 

Last night before I went to bed I made pumpkin oats in the crockpot so I woke up to breakfast! It was really good and I put raisins in it then shared with my little lovebug. I only added a little honey last night and that was it for sugar.

I also made some avocado brownies yesterday incase that sweet tooth came back! I only ate a small amount which is good, I like knowing they're there if I need them though! They're low in sugar but still taste great!

Abby is going through a huge teething episode. We have two bottom molars trying to break the skin and they're just not yet! It's agonizing for everyone especially my sleep, or lack of. Which is why I did not workout today. I did however work out yesterday! 

Tonight I made a really yummy quiche out of organic eggs cheese goat cheese and ground turkey! It was amaaaazing and turned out really well! I might have some tomorrow for breakfast! 

It's late. Abby is in her room sleeping tonight and I'm not really happy about it. Yes I realize she's already 11 months and still sleeps in our room! I can't help it, I love her. 

Goodnight!